People will try to tell you what to do what will make your life better. Maybe what I was told wasn’t for me sure going to college is important but grades aren’t everything maybe I don’t need the money to be happy. Sure it would be nice to have more money but I would be just as happy making 40,000 a year and being with a women I love and helping out as many people as I possibly can than be making a 1,000,000 and being married to someone that only sees me for my pay check and I won’t have time to help out others.
Every day I realize more and more how I owe everything I am to a few specific people in my life. I owe my sense of morals to my parents and my grand-parents they taught me that not matter who someone is (what sex they are, what race they are, what sexual preferences they have, or what god they believe in or what god they don’t believe in) I should treat them with the same respect I would treat my family. I like to think that I do that and I know that makes me a better person. You aren’t born with hate you aren’t born thinking black people are stupid, Asian’s are smart, Jews are rich, or gays are corrupting or morals these are things that you are taught. The second group of people I have to thank are my friends, my friends made me realize that no matter what you do how badly you screw up there is always someone there to catch you when you fall. I can’t thank my friends enough for this, I can’t even count how many times I have fallen, but I can tell you I have never hit the ground. The third group of people I have to thank are my teachers through out the years, they showed me that if you work hard, put every thing you have into something you can make a difference, you may not be making millions of dollars but some things are more important than money.
One of the toughest things I have had to deal with in my life is depression. I was depressed at a very young age even though I had a very loving family and very good friends that I could always count on I just had trouble with my depression I still have trouble with my depression. Many days it takes me a lot of effort to even get out of the bed in the morning I really don’t have much going for me. One of the few things that I have wanted for a long time but have never had is a relationship with a woman who understands me, a woman who I can talk to without feeling judged someone who I could talk to and just feel like she could make everything better with just a smile. The only way I can get out of bed is just by thinking today will be a better day. Today is the day that I get one day closer to find that perfect women who will make me feel whole.
The other day someone asked me what it meant to be a man and I didn’t have an answer right on the spot it took some thinking. I came to realize what being a man means when I saw a father and his son. Being a man doesn’t mean that you have the right type of sex organs, or you can lift more weight than someone else. Being a man means standing up for what you believe in standing up for what is right. Standing up to all those people who can’t stand up for themselves giving a voice to those who can’t cry out. Being a man means you will do anything for what is right in the world and you want just stand by as something happens to someone who can’t do anything.
I saw one of the more recent south park episodes and it was making a reference to the movie bully. I was surprised that they actually made a good point many of you may have heard about the big fight to make the movie rated PG-13 instead of R so the kids could go to see it. In this episode of south park the mentioned how they should put the movie online for free so all people could see it and I thought that was a great idea.